One of my friends who already had the working visa approved, and is in the Green Card process got laid off two weeks ago. Luckily, he got another similar job, but not sure if the Green Card process got screwed up or not. The gist of it is that life is always changed. The unknown circumstances around us are changing according to the time and sometimes environment. It got me to think that we really have a hard time trusting life. It can be full of opportunities, but it can be also full of risks. It is very nerve wrecking to me because whatever my friend went through, what if it happens to me too some day.

I hate the fact that I even have this sort of fear. I hate the fact that I “what if” again. I even hate the fact that I am here worried about the future. But these can be used as an emotional preparation. It means that when the “if” part really happens, at least we thought about it before and become less paranoid when the predicted thing really happens in the future. However, we should make this a temporary thing and not a permanent one. Living in fear is nothing but a self-destruction. Get yourself prepared by looking for solutions and options, but clear your mind as quickly as possible because keep worrying about the future is useless and it does not help the situation at all. More importantly, you kill the present time, which you should be enjoying and living in it.

I learn that things usually happen in phases. Most of the time, they happen for some reasons. However, that does not mean I have to worry about each phase and wallow myself in fear. We should all live in NOW steps by steps, and take each day as a gift for living. As always, live our lives to the fullest!

P.S: I wrote my Utah trip yesterday but I am waiting for my trip's photos to get uploaded and then post them here along with my trip's information.

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My first day at Utah turned out alright. I have seen a lot of aggressive situations today. Being bold and aggressive is acceptable when it is done appropriately. Some people are just too aggressive that really make me sick. I do not want to sound very judgmental here because I am not a judgmental freak. But I like what I like, and believe in what I believe that makes me feel good about myself, and more importantly, something or someone that does not harm my self-esteem.

I have been trying to improve every aspects of my self-image. It has been going quite well, and I want to keep it that way. Therefore, when I am with someone that is like everything his own way, I am sick of it. I have a friend who I know through another friend. He is acting like that – things have to be done his way. Time, plan, places to go, what to see, etc. have to be his idea. I have observed this the whole time, and gave it a shot to come on this trip with him and my other two friends to see how it would turn out. To my surprise, I could not stand it. My other two friends are cool, but I can see why they can be with that friend. It is because they literally “follow” him. This is just the way how things work though because if friends don’t find compatibility with one another, then friendship will never happen. It is not a kind of friendship that I want.

I am writing this up not because I am not enjoying the trip. I am very much enjoying it. However, I want to make a point that be who you want to be, do what you want to do, and act what you are prompted to act. It is you and only you that you have. Selling your own soul to another person is just a waste part of your life. If someone does not let you be yourself and does not make you feel good about yourself, you really should not hang around that person too much. The reason beyond that is you do not want your self-esteem to be devastated by the other person’s actions or words. Your happiness is what counts. Being around negative people makes you become negative too sooner or later. Being around complaining people makes you a bitchy person when you least expect it. Being around “things have to be done my way” people hurts your self-image because you never get to express yourself. I do not want this to happen to me. I strive to be happy in this life, to live my life to the fullest just the way I am creating it to be, and therefore, I do not want anyone to dwindle that passion and make me feel terrible about my self-expression. You think about this, and look at things and people around you. Maybe it is time to re-organize them in your life.

I am not saying here that the negative people, complaining people, or even “things have to be done my way” people are bad. Absolutely not! We are all tying our best to live our lives. If that’s the way they behave and that’s what makes them feel good about themselves, then let them be. But it is you that I want you to focus on. That is being said, whether or not it makes you happy to be around those people.

Good night.

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I have not travelled for awhile now. Tomorrow is the 4th of July – American Independence Day holiday, me and my friends are going to Utah. It will be a road trip. First, we will be going to Salt Lake City, and then we will be going to the Arches, Bryce Canyon, and hopefully Zion National Parks. I hope to return to Boise by Monday. I have two days off from work (Monday and Tuesday), and they are paid time offs, hehe…

Traveling is one of my favorite things to do. I usually like to try out new places. I have been to Salt Lake City before, but I have not been to those mentioned national parks. In our lives, how many times that we are afraid of doing new things? We are afraid of adventures and risks. With this lack of tenacity, we give up the fact of what we want to do or where we want to go. We put those things on hold. Trying new things is fun, and that includes going to new places too. I was not born in America, but I chose to come here all by myself. I moved from Cambodia to Indiana, and then from Indiana to Idaho, between that I have traveled to a few states. It has been a fun experience, and more importantly, it is my favorite thing to do. I was a student and was not rich, just like other students that had to work and study at the same time, but when I got a chance I was willing to spend money just to travel. The reason for that is very simple, that is because I want to do so.

It is holiday, so go out and do something. Life is fun when we know how to make it the way that we think it is fun. Let go the fear and worries, go check out some places that you have not been to, do something that you always wanted to do but did not have a chance or have been afraid to do. It is risk that brings the excitement and fulfilling, and it is adventure that brings the joy and accomplishment. To live life to the fullest is to be willing to go on adventures and take risks.

I will post some photos when I get back. I will take my laptop with me so who knows if I will be inspired to write something during the trip. Until then, happy 4th of July ;)


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Time does fly very fast. Just a simple glance, it is the middle of the year 2008. I have been blogging for quite awhile, but for this “Live Life to the Fullest,” I have been writing for only a month so far. What sets this blog aside from other blogs that I used to have is that things that I write here are more inspiring and personal growing.

I want to share with you all that I appreciate you spend time reading this blog, and I hope it can bring happiness and ideas about how you can live your life to the fullest that you want it to be. For the past month (June), I had written every day something to post on here, and all related to my personal experiences that happened each day. I turned worries, unhappiness, angers, boredom, loneliness, and other defective emotional feelings into words that I triggered those negative feelings to positive ones for my personal growth’s sake. Also, I hope that those words can mean something to the readers as well. The point is I have been happy since June. For the most part, this blog has been helping me a lot with personal growth and life improvement.

I believe that when we write something more inspiring with positivity, our life is filled with hopes and dreams. The moment we go back to read what we wrote, it also provides us with positive thoughts within our mind. Picture this, you write something about a sad time or an emotional journal, when you go back to read it, your mood can be changed with whatever was written. Sadly, it’s sad. Therefore, I recommend you all to write something that makes you happy, leave out the unhappy parts. If you have a bad day, turn the negative feelings to positive ones in your writing. Once again, do whatever you want to do. This simply is just my suggestion that I learn from blogging this blog. There are ways that you can make yourself happy, do share if you have some. Lastly, happy blogging!

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Do you have a habit of saying “Sorry?” Apologizing to people when we do something wrong is very well done, but when we actually do not do anything wrong, or in other words, it is not our fault, then it is very horrible done. Due to our habit, we tend to apologize quickly when things go wrong. Another major factor is that we have a low self-esteem issue.

I used to be like that, sorry this and sorry that, when in fact, it was not my fault and things were even out of my control. I often felt bad when things went wrong and I did not know what to say besides saying sorry and hoping that the other person would understand and forgive me. Apology can be considered an argument settlement, that’s being said if one party is willing to accept he or she is wrong and apologize, and then the other person will feel good and stop the argument. In my case, I feel responsible for things that I lay my hands on.

However, the reality does not work this way. Change the habit of saying sorry, and only say and mean it when things go wrong because of your actions. Misunderstanding is every where, but that does not mean it is you that cause the misunderstanding thing to happen in the first place. Sure you might send out wrong signals or say something that’s not fully understood by the other person, but it’s not like something that you should feel bad and tell yourself that you are stupid and horrible at communication. It can be something that is totally out of your control. Remember, there’s always at least a root of problem. You are obligated to analyze that root, and see if it really is your fault or not. No one is perfect or never does anything wrong, but when often time we apologize, we send out negative thoughts to our mind when it really has nothing to do with us. Low self-esteem folks would beat themselves up terribly. I have been there and done that, but I have also done changing my habit of saying sorry all the time. The point is, it is nice to feel responsible and that shows how dependable person you are, but if you don’t mean it when you say it, then what’s the point of apologizing? More importantly, if saying sorry means it is your entire fault, and you send out those negative thoughts to your mind, finally you make yourself feel terrible, it will be totally useless. Think about this and next time re-evaluate the problems and causes before saying sorry, trust me, you will feel much better.

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